Ignorance is bliss... but it's not right.

Later we had our regular $1 hair wash, and did a rooftop workout with our trx band and yoga mat. After, I decided to take 20minutes to meditate and just be with myself for a little bit. As I sat there in stillness, tears began to stream down my face. I began digesting all the experiences I had had in my first 2 weeks, and they all started to become really real to me. When you're in the moment, experiencing and seeing difficult things with the poverty and poor in the country, you somewhat have to try brush it off and separate yourself from you.

When there are countless children, begging you for money, trying to sell you braclets or books...
When you see the shacks and slums that the people are living in and you literally can't handle the smell of the horrid sewage which surrounds their tin homes...
When you are combing and picking the lice out of the children's hair, knowing that they have no mom or dad to love them, hold them, or tell them how proud they are of them...
...You have no choice but to try pull yourself away and try not to think about it.

As I sat there I began to digest the realness of it all and I felt pain. I sat there and just tried to be with it. I felt stomach sick, angry, sad and scared for the lives and future realities of the children of the country, especially my kiddies at the orphanage.
Then I thought to myself, how they hell did we become so selfish!? It's sickening. It's bullshit. Children, people, they actually have nothing.. Nothing. And, my previous concept of 'nothing' was so distorted from what I've now learned what 'nothing' really is.
And in that I really realized, I am SO selfish! It's really messed up. I think about myself, I get worked up over the stupidest, most pointless stuff! And all for what!? The world has such bigger problems. Explosively bigger than any of my problems. I felt upset, confused, ashamed and awakened.

Eventually my tears stopped, my heart rate slowed down, and I found myself humming the children's song " he's got the whole world in his hands."
-Kendal